I hated myself for what you did.
I wish you knew how bad it fucked me up.
I wish you could feel
just for a moment
the way my heart shattered
and tore out of my body
and the resentment for you making me this way.
everything I put my life into
fell apart
right
before
my eyes.
If only you knew
if only I knew
what would have been
to not be broken
to love you the way I once did.
God, to love you the way that I want to
if I could breathe.
because now
now
I can never
go back
to loving you
the way I did
knowing
that my love
wasn’t enough
the first time
around.
Date someone you can be fucking weird as hell with who at the end of the day still wants to get naked with you.
“i don’t possess anything you left, yet you possess everything i tried to hold on to”— e.e.
5sos and little mix really did: THAT